Okay fellow Post-Grads, lately I’ve kind of been annoyed. No, more than annoyed, pissed. No, just freakin’ out of my mind frustrated. As a new graduate, it seems like my patience for things that tick me off is wearing thinner with each passing day. Life events that would’ve barely gotten under my skin last summer are making me want to pull my hair out this summer. I don’t know if it’s the fact that I’m just older and more bitter, or that I have no more familiar pattern to follow as I did in summers past. What I do know is that I sometimes resist the urge to come home, turn on the faucets in the bathroom, and scream till my throat is raw (which, as a former singer, scares me to even type). Many of you may have read my last post, where I discussed a huge life decision that I have weighing on me. Never fear, I will get back to that topic in another post at some point, but today I can’t. Today I’m just too stinking mad. About what, you may ask? Well, I felt it would be cathartic to type out a list in hopes that maybe some of you guys could relate. So, without further ado, here ya go:
1. My awful Country Club job. Yeah, I know, the economy sucks and I should be happy I even have a job. But sometimes I nevertheless wanna drown myself in one of the toilets or showers in the bathrooms I’m in charge of cleaning. This job has taught me nothing aside from the fact that rich people are messy, their children are brats, and my parents did a hell of a job raising me to be a normal person compared to some of the members at that place.
2. Speaking of my parents, let’s get one thing straight: I love them. Really, I do. But I can’t live with either of them for more than three months at a time without going insane. They both have their own life problems, and I feel a lot of the time like I can’t fully focus on my own life when I’m home because I end up getting dragged into family drama.
3. I don’t have a bedroom. Anyone out there who can come home at night and close a door behind them to shut out their sucky day, I envy you. Pull out sofas are only fun on vacation or when you’re at a sleepover. Living in the middle of the living room definitely gets to you when you’re woken up at 5 am every day by your parents leaving for work in the morning and you haven’t slept in past 7 all summer.
4. I have no friends to hang out with. The four years I’ve been away at school have pretty much killed the friendships I had from high school. It’s expected that everyone moves on with their lives. But sometimes after a long shitty day at work, it would just be nice to have someone to get ice coffee and chat with.
I’m going to leave it here for now. I do want everyone to know that I don’t intend this post to mean that I think I have the worst life ever or that I’m a negative nancy. I realize that in many respects I’m luckier than most other people out there. I only mean to share my view on things in the hope that another Post-Grad out there who’s having the same feelings as me might feel a little better knowing that someone else out there has the same issues. So tell me, do you ever have days where everything just bugs the crap out of you? We’ve all been there, but in the end it’s important to remember that most people have at least some good in their lives at any given moment. No matter how sucky things seem at the time, you have to remember the little things when the Post-Grad going gets rough.